What the fluff am I doing?

I am working too much.

I am sleeping, not enough.

I am confused in life.

How do I get to where I want to be? Someone, anyone, can you hear me? So much has changed since I started this online adventure. Big. Big life things. I am getting older. Life is moving faster. What the fluff am I doing?

I think I really need to take about 6 months and just work on me and where I want to be, but I don't have 6 months to spare. I think I am going to hit the beach for at least a month. An entire snowbird season is probably not doable for a lot of reasons. The biggest reason is that work will NOT slow down. That is obviously a good thing. It would be a better thing if I even cared.

Going into the 4th of July weekend has me feeling a type of way. It's the end of the 1st half of the year, and the beginning of the 2nd. I am halfway to home again for winter. I'm halfway to no more 80 hours weeks for a while. I'm halfway to my parents expecting more of me again. I'm halfway to seasonal depression. And I am a lifetime away from the life I could have if I didn't work so much in this fluffing truck for 6 months out of the year. It takes SO much out of me. It takes me out of me. But I keep pushing this year because I refuse to be that business that says I don't have enough staff. I just become 4 employees instead.

So this weekend, you might see me in the office, probably not the truck. If you do, say hi, throw me a nickel or two for good cheer, but mostly, live your best life. If not for yourself, so you can tell me all about it. Let me live through you.