Oh, hey, has it been a minute? Where to begin?
My mother had a stroke. It seemed not so bad, but now it is pretty bad. It has been a real roller coaster of a week, if I am being honest. That happened on Saturday night.
My sister and I have been trying to manage that situation and I am pretty sure we are failing miserably. You know how people say " you never know how to do something for the first time, until you do it?" This is that. I have never needed to care for someone who has had a stroke. I have never had to care for a sick parent. Add into that, that I haven't even spoken to my sister, who lives 10 miles from me, in 5 years, until this week, and it is a recipe for hard.
It has been a hard week.
Today was the icing on the cake though. She was moved yesterday from the hospital to a rehab facility. I was with her when they did her intake. She was covid tested before they discharged her, and her test was negative. This morning her patient file said it was positive. Her cognitive issues are bad, but it was easy to see glimpses of her when I was there. Now we can't be there. She most probably has no idea what is going on and she is alone. She is asymptomatic so they are going to test her again, figuring it is probably wrong. In the meantime, we aren't aloud to visit, and I am not technically aloud to go to work. I have only been to work for a few hours this week anyway, but there is a difference between not going and not being aloud to go. Should we hang out on chaturbate tomorrow? I don't fucking know.
I have suspended all truck bookings and started canceling bookings this week to accommodate the time I need to commit to my mother. I most likely will end up taking eldercare fmla when her rehab is up/done. This whole thing is bananas. Any words of advice? I think I need some.
I want your tokens, I really do, but masturbation isn't super high on my priority list right now. Add into that, I am slightly, actually paranoid that I have the rona, but I don't actually think she has it. Paranoia is just a tricky thing. I think I need the distraction.
So because I am not a societal ass hole, I will be staying in tomorrow, until her test results come back...and possibly a lot longer, depending on what they are, because obviously I have been in very close contact with her the last 5 days. Good vibes please. This is...hard.
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