Well, as my vacation comes to an end, I feel like I should share some news. All these months of G rated Jenni are not going to be coming to an end. The months of planning and wanting to be a snowbird, most probably won't be happening. Leisurely enjoying my downtime is probably not going to really be happening this year.
I had a visit with the urologist last week that was disappointing, to say the least. When I get back I will have to have some imaging done (MRI) and depending on what that imaging looks like I will be scheduling surgery. I would like to get through the food truck season, and I currently have bookings through November 5th. I may not be able to wait that long. I won't know until I know. I love that uncertainty.
If I have learned anything in the last several years is that I should NEVER make plans that involve me, because the universe does not want them to happen. The universe is bullshit to me right now. I try really hard to be mindful and live a meaningful and worthy existence, but I just keep getting hit with things.
This vacation has meant more to me because of this situation. I just need to slow things down a bit to really get right with this procedure. I put this off. That's on me. I can only hope that one surgery (one more than I want to have) will be enough to remedy the problem and that I have the mental strength to remember when it's over, that I want the rest of my life to be meaningful and joyous. Keeping myself healthy is going to be a huge in that. All of these other things I have wanted, house, snowbird, restaurant...I don't care about any of those things. I want to have a healthy rest of life. So I have to do this thing I don't want. That I have put off. That I hope doesn't make me worse. Urethral Diverticulum. You can google. Apparently, it's rare, which makes me obviously, really lucky.
I'll try to stream a bunch before then, because I am going to be off of work to recuperate, and there won't be any masturbation then. G rated Jenni forever...or so it seems.
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