A few days off

Yep - I broke the streak. I think I really needed some time to just catch up at home. I have had some work things going on that have been exciting and keeping me busy. So exciting, that I texted Taco Tom because I was having a winning day.

I feel like this screenshot really says a lot about who I am. For as much as I love the fuck out of him, my attention fades fast, and at least I am honest about it. In the moment, I would have liked a celebratory fuck for my win, but I know myself well enough to know that night would come, I would sleep, and I would wake up and be over it. I don't think that says I don't want to fuck him, it just means I am an impulsive girl. I want what I want when I want it, and if I don't get it, I move past it. My need for a prize has in fact worn off, and no dick did I have.

Sometimes I am like this with streaming also. I took a few days off and I am kind of over it. Fear not, I will get back online, but once I am offline for a day or two, it feels like work to get back on. Same thing with the trucks. When I am on them, I am fine. When I am off them, I never want to go back. I wouldn't say that I am manic in this, but I can shift my moods pretty quick. I feel like it is just situational because things often change rapidly in my world. I don't think I mean to do it, it just happens because it has too. When I texted Taco Tom, I wanted a prize. I wanted him to be my prize. Is it wrong to want a person to be a prize?

I guess in a nutshell, this post is me admitting that I am a little more daffy than you all may have thought.

I am not sure if I will be online tomorrow for FriYay - I honestly feel a little sick tonight and I have a big meeting tomorrow afternoon that I really need to be 100% for. I will reappear at some point in the next 3 days for some weekend fun. Maybe you guys can be my prize and I can be yours!