Single and not mingling

While I was in PA for work a few weeks ago, I had a full blown meltdown of sorts. Included in the meltdown was me asking Taco Tom to do me a favor. He says "anything for you", and I said, "Just let me go", and I haven't heard a word from him, nor me to him.

I actually have a lot of guilt about that - the way I handled that. He said "anything for me", and then I blindsided him with abandonment. It wasn't o.k.

So I am super single and not mingling. I don't have it in me. I would really like a winter fuck buddy, but the people-ing aspect of that is ridiculous. Can't we just snap our fingers and "get" each other without the chatter.