Self Suck - So many questions - not enough answers

I feel like I may have joked at some point about, if I had a dick, I would never leave the house, I would just play with it all day. I don't really think I have ever thought about a line in the sand about self sucking. I have now. Hard no! And to be even more honest, I don't ever want to see it. I don't want to know a man that I am with can or has done it.

I have had a really long couple of work days and I came home tonight, took a shower, was eating some dinner, and I logged into chaturbate, thinking I might stream after I ate, but I clicked on this somewhat hot guy, and the next thing you know, someone tipped him for a self suck. Now, I have seen this in profile goals and stuff before but never came so close to it. I didn't feel any type of way about it. Now I do. Hard no.

Why? Someone tell me why you want your own dick in your mouth. Someone please tell me why you want to cum in your own mouth. I have done I don't know how many phone sex calls will men who shoot into their mouth - but not by self sucking, just by big loads or positioning. It doesn't bother me, as a general rule, that men eat/taste their own cum. I love a good swap after a BJ swallow on my end, but a self suck...someone explain to me why.

Seriously -send me an message. I need to know the reason one would do this. I think there are obvious reasons why one wouldn't do this.

I never knew I had a limit, I think I just found one. I don't want a dude that can and will suck his own dick. Hard no.

Just overtired, overworked, not enough dick of my own lately, meanderings.