Another day in paradise

So I want to tell you all that I am down south just living it up. I'm not. I came down here with a plan for work, and that plan is shit right now. So right now, my job is paying me to sit around and do nothing, until I have something to do. I fucking NEED something to do.

It probably sounds really simple to say, lay on beach, have a pool day. I don't know if you all know this, but...shhhh, I am taking life way to fucking seriously right now. I am really maybe not that much fun in clothes. Naked. Yes, I am a lot of naked fun. But when it is time to work, I am all about being a producer, that is what I am. This little experiment that my job put together for me...it is sinking...which could mean that I am sinking...but I don't do that, so I am just trying to keep it pushing.

This weekend, however, I have nadda on the books. So why not spend my days on chaturbate? Idk, what I will do. The beaches are just too busy on the weekend, and it is also a holiday weekend, so there are a lot of extra people in town.

I also have my "friend", coming to town on Tuesday for his work, and he is thinking we are going to fuck like bunnies. If I have said it once, I have said it 100 times...If he wants to stream with me, I will 100% put out for him, but otherwise, I am just not that into him. Then I think...would I be more into it, if I know that you all are watching? It isn't that he isn't a good fuck. He is. He's sexy. His cock is huge. There is just something...off... He doesn't know I stream, but we aren't friends on any level, so telling him, if he says no, isn't a thing either, cause the state he lives and the state he works are both blocked on my end.

Do I just need a good fucking and then my mind will be clear? I am NOT used to working without a cock to entertain me. Cock on demand for Jenni keeps me working at top level. Maybe that is the issue.

I am totally motivated by money though. Maybe I will throw up a poll this weekend and let you guys help me decide.